the work-on-the-side...i have a confession to make. it isn't really a confession, so to speak. more like a revelation. a personal one, albeit. so, to start off from the beginning, the last month has been spent mostly volunteering at the Oxfam Shop and at events where we've participated on behalf of the organisers or by invitation from other companies/organisers. very exciting, fun-OutThere stuff. and i've met a heap of Awesome People through volunteering, be it other volunteers or customers/supporters of the 'Cause'.
Nonetheless, as much as i REALLY REALLY do like working at the shop (where it's actually more customer service based and more product oriented), i still encounter many moments of panic and anxiety (i think...it's where my heart pounds and i CAN'T WAIT TO GET HOME and get on the computer to look/apply JOBS) about finding a monetarily-sound position. i know it sounds hypocritical, but volunteer work makes sense when u can support yourself and you feel happy and want to spread the love. BUT AT THE SAME TIME, i would want to work for a NFP organization if given a choice. wait. let me change that. i would want to work for a NFP organisation whose work and work ethic completely meld with principles i hold true. and having worked at this agency, i realise that no matter how true to the standards (of being a nfp agency and for the cause which they champion) the founders mean it to be, there is always risk of straying-"we are only human". it's heaps worse when the errors aren't even due to callousness. when it's due to downright loss of vision-when we forget what we were fighting for, in the first place. when we succumb to committing the same type of crimes as those we accuse of perpetrating them. but i digress.
all i want, at this point, is to experience more of the world, more of what the world has to offer. i have an opportunity that many are still struggling to attain, that many are struggling to fight for for others. SO i shall make myself useful, and use it. the opportunity, that is.
and by the way. since i'm already rambling and rolling and digressing, Oppression and Discrimination and Racism takes place on MANY DIFFERENT LEVELS. think of it as being a domino effect. a chain reaction, of sorts. our every move has an after-effect.
all the same, i still am adamant at selling my soul to the demons of advertising, for the purpose of extracting relevant information and developing skills to contribute to the CAUSES FOR THE GREATER GOOD.
this is the current me: volunteer, looking for (other) opportunities
this is the ideal me: workaholic with a penchant for volunteer endeavours
CONCLUSION?
i am so not hippy...yet.
and i dont want to be hypocritical like some people i've met along the way..seriously, why bother saving the world (no, not the world..just the poor bloody-mostly-Asian countries that can't save themselves..but MAN, IS IT CHEAP to travel there!! *cue rolling eyes, on my part*) when you can't even be arsed to be nice on a daily basis? WHY?
good grief. yes, keep kidding yourself that you're great just cos you do work (that isn't). blech.
i like the people keep it real. They've got the Right Stuff. With the Right Intentions. Some Leftist Appeal, but Lots of Brain Power. i likes. i lurves. i hugs.
THE WORLD NEEDS MORE CHOCOLATE.
